I was worried sick for a day, checking my whatsapp whenever I can, but I just heard from my best friend and it seemed alright :)

Last year when it was the release of your UK A levels results and I spent the whole day with you for emotional support. We went out while you fidgeted beside me the whole time, then we took the taxi back to your place to wait for it to be released online. You told me this was unprecedented, you had never invited any girl back to your place in Hong Kong before. Then it came out, you didn’t do too bad but you didn’t manage to get into the colleges you want. You asked if you could hug me and I said yes. When it was time for me to go home you took my hand and walked me to the station. It was the first time I ever felt any affection that was not purely platonic on your part. Maybe it was me overthinking, maybe all you needed was a friend, and I just so happened to be there for you, because I was always there for you.

Was.

I write about you so much on here but to be honest I almost don’t think about you at all now, except at odd moments. These posts are…my detoxification process.